I've Got Hurt Feelings, I've Got Hurt Feelings (They're All Lined Up to See that Movie... Maid in Manhattan) ;)

When I was younger, I used to get all kinds of upset when a bunch of people would do something & I wasn't invited. I've never been one of those people with an abundance of friends. In fact, I can probably count my friends on one hand. Friends that I call, friends I hang out with, friends that are there. But a few years ago, a group of "friends" formed. & it's not that everyone in that group was friends with everyone else, but the group as a whole was friends. 

So! When the group would go do something & I wasn't invited, I would get upset & have a pity party & think about how no one likes me & everyone is mean. That's normal, right? Probably not, I know. Haha 

So recently, I've been perfectly content with having Sebastian {boyfriend} & Katie {best friend who I actually don't see all that much either}. I feel like as you get older, you realize you don't need to have an abundance of friends. So naturally, all of the "I'm-not-invited-these-people-hate-me-and-I-hate-them" feelings go away. 

Weeeelllllll, sometimes, my inner middle schooler comes out & I just don't know what to do about it. Like when all of your friends do something & don't invite you, then post pictures showing how good of a time they had & you're just like, "Okay, since we weren't together that day anyway, & since you didn't have a chance to tell us all of these people are hanging out.". And then I'm like, "I'm going to have a pity party & think about all of the things I'm going to do and not invite them. And I go rambling to Sebastian about how rude people are. And he listens. And he agrees with me. Not because he actually agrees with anything I say, but because he cares about me & all of my little girl feelings showing through my 20 year old self. 

And then I break the cardinal rule of mature social media using & I write it all down. Because, BAH! People. Fortunately, Sebastian is a home-body all the way & he'd rather spend every night with just me than with a group of anyone. Unfortunately, I like people & really enjoy seeing Sebastian with his friends (he really does have friends, y'all. :)). After all, it was in this group of friends that he first made my heart flutter. So when we're all together, I go back 15 & 17 ~ just two babies crushin' on each other.

One day, I'm bound to grow up. But until then, I'm going to go cry to my mommy & pretend like I still fit on my daddy's lap. :)