I've Got Hurt Feelings, I've Got Hurt Feelings (They're All Lined Up to See that Movie... Maid in Manhattan) ;)

When I was younger, I used to get all kinds of upset when a bunch of people would do something & I wasn't invited. I've never been one of those people with an abundance of friends. In fact, I can probably count my friends on one hand. Friends that I call, friends I hang out with, friends that are there. But a few years ago, a group of "friends" formed. & it's not that everyone in that group was friends with everyone else, but the group as a whole was friends. 

So! When the group would go do something & I wasn't invited, I would get upset & have a pity party & think about how no one likes me & everyone is mean. That's normal, right? Probably not, I know. Haha 

So recently, I've been perfectly content with having Sebastian {boyfriend} & Katie {best friend who I actually don't see all that much either}. I feel like as you get older, you realize you don't need to have an abundance of friends. So naturally, all of the "I'm-not-invited-these-people-hate-me-and-I-hate-them" feelings go away. 

Weeeelllllll, sometimes, my inner middle schooler comes out & I just don't know what to do about it. Like when all of your friends do something & don't invite you, then post pictures showing how good of a time they had & you're just like, "Okay, since we weren't together that day anyway, & since you didn't have a chance to tell us all of these people are hanging out.". And then I'm like, "I'm going to have a pity party & think about all of the things I'm going to do and not invite them. And I go rambling to Sebastian about how rude people are. And he listens. And he agrees with me. Not because he actually agrees with anything I say, but because he cares about me & all of my little girl feelings showing through my 20 year old self. 

And then I break the cardinal rule of mature social media using & I write it all down. Because, BAH! People. Fortunately, Sebastian is a home-body all the way & he'd rather spend every night with just me than with a group of anyone. Unfortunately, I like people & really enjoy seeing Sebastian with his friends (he really does have friends, y'all. :)). After all, it was in this group of friends that he first made my heart flutter. So when we're all together, I go back 15 & 17 ~ just two babies crushin' on each other.

One day, I'm bound to grow up. But until then, I'm going to go cry to my mommy & pretend like I still fit on my daddy's lap. :) 

Road Trips & Weddings & Good Best Friends

At the beginning of June, Sebastian and I took a trip up to Connecticut for Sebastian's best friend's wedding. The two of us got in my little green party car & started making our way up north. We were doing pretty good until we ran out of toll money (oops), then got lost in New York City. The whole trip up, I was beeeegging Sebastian to take me to Central Park at some point during our travels, but he just wasn't fond of the idea of actually going into the big City. But as fate would have it, a few wrong turns ended us, not in Central Park, but in busy Manhattan none the less.

We got to Connecticut Thursday, the rehearsal was Friday, the wedding was Saturday, and we left Sunday. It was short, but it was a lot of fun! Sebastian was the best man and their whole group of friends made up the groomsmen. It was nice to be around everyone and get to celebrate such an exciting time in Chris & Jewel's lives.

The rehearsal & the BBQ (which that awesome sign was made by Chris' sister Amanda. Impressive, right?!) was tons of fun. And as you can tell, they played some pretty intense volleyball, too! 

The wedding was really nice. The best man was really handsome. And let me tell you, I'm a huge fan of bow ties. They're just so perfect! 

I looove weddings. I really enjoyed having my camera and taking pictures without the stress & responsibility of having to catch every moment. I was able to be there, hang out with friends, and pull out my camera when I wanted to capture something. It was nice. :)

Chris & Jewel are back from their honeymoon & living here until they leave for China in August. I think the plan is for them to teach English there for two years then see what the Lord's plans are for them. I know Chris has played such a huge role in Sebastian's life & I'm so thankful for the friendship they have. :)

Life Update

Ya know, I wake up in the morning thinking, "I need to blog today." & I start doing whatever it is I do all day & when I go to sleep, I think, "I didn't blog today...again.". I mean, what's the point of having a blog if you aren't going to use it? Hm.

Well, once again, it's been almost four (FOUR!) months since my last post, and that's when you guys heard about my old man dad retiring. Not really an old man, but still. ;) Since then, too much has happened for me to remember. 

In March, I found out I'll be an Aunt to three in November. Each week (kinda), Lydia and I do these baby bump pictures to track how much she's grown, and it's been a lot of fun! As far as my photography goes, I'm really praying about what direction the Lord is leading me to, and I'm getting more and more clarity that I should be in the Maternity/Birth/Newborn/First Year field of this industry. But that's a secret. ;) 

On April 17th, Sebastian and I celebrated 4 years together. I love those yearly dates that come around & make you all nostalgic. Thinking about April 14, 2010 when Sebastian surprised me by coming to my church, rode with my cousin AJ and I to take a friend home, & held my hand in the back of that ugly yellow car. Then asking me to be his girl three days later in the church parking lot after a youth group game night. Coming home from the rodeo on June 19th & giving me the best hug before whispering the most perfect thing he's ever said to me, "I love you, Hannah. I really do love you.". June 7th, just a few days before he left for the Bahamas, three months after we'd started dating (three months seems like a long time to me, too. ;)), he kissed me while Mall Cop played in the background and his brother sat on the other couch. Awkward, but oh-so-perfect. Gah, I love him. 

 April 29th, Sebastian turned 22! I'm so, so thankful for his love. Out of everyone in the world, God let me be the one Sebastian calls every morning & kisses every night. Blessed. 

In May, my parents celebrated 28 years of marriage. I've been given the best example of how a godly marriage should be, & I can't wait to be able to love my husband the way my mom loves my dad. I couldn't be more thankful for the parents God blessed me with. Again, out of everyone in the world, I got to be Chris & Anne Marie Amos' baby girl. And I wouldn't trade that for anything. 

June has been a fantastically busy month, but I feel like it constitutes it's own post. And hey, two posts in one day. I may be on to something!