Over the past year, I've developed a good amount of anxiety. It's horrible & I absolutely hate it, but I deal with it. I whole-heartedly believe that part of this is due to stress. If I could just let go of worry, my stomach wouldn't be in knots so often.
Stress could easily be my middle name. I'm constantly stressed about bills, work, Sebastian's work, relationships, friendships, impressing others, my business, "likes", marketing...so much, so often. Why?
God has given me an incredible life with an incredible family & incredible friends. He's given me Sebastian Michael Brown to share my triumphs & failures with. Who loves me more than I ever thought someone could, & who knows me so much better than I know myself.
Why do I insist on trying to "win" people's friendships? Why am I constantly trying to please & impress those who don't even matter?
I'm working on getting rid of clutter in my life. People, places, things that just bring me down. I need to give all of this to God & let Him do with it what He wants. Already, I've felt such a change. It's like life isn't so heavy after all.
For a long, long time, I haven't known who I am. I haven't know who I'm "myself" around. But recently, the Lord has shown me who the "real" Hannah is. I can look back and see *these people I'm myself around* , *these people I try to be someone else around*.
I'm so excited to fully embrace the friends God has blessed me with & let go of the ones I never seemed good enough for.
If you have found yourself being brought down, look at who/what is around you. You have to, have to, have to separate yourself from the negative people & things in your life. It's hard, but it's so worth it.
Seriously, let go & let God.
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